John 3:16-17 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)16 “For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not perish but may have eternal life.
17 “Indeed, God did not send the Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. (John 3:16-17 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV))
I had hoped to post this blog on December 18th, but I returned from vacation to find myself busier than usual. So, a bit late, but still relevant.
I thought I knew everything about love. I fell in love, I had a child, I married couples, and I preached about love, specifically God’s love. I thought I was an expert. Until I realized that I didn’t know the first thing about love, because I didn’t know how to love. Certainly, I knew how to give of myself and show signs of love, but I didn’t really know how to love because I didn’t know how to love myself.
For years, I had experienced glimpses of love. I had seen it in my son’s eyes, and felt it in his hugs. I had seen it in my marriage. And, I believe that I’ve only experienced small amounts of love, because deep down, I don’t think I’m that loveable. So, I don’t really love myself.
Here is the good news. God loves me and I’m starting to experience more of that love. I’ve taken up meditation, and in those deep moments when I’m breathing slowly and focusing on God’s presence, I feel a profound sense of God’s love. It is at those moments that I realize how profoundly God loves the world that God would love even me. And, I am filled to the bursting with love.
This is the message that we here this Christmas Season. God loves you and me, not because we are perfect, but because we are. And, knowing that helps us love ourselves a little more each day.